Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I have meant to write this post for quite a while now. I am confessing here and now that I have homeschool envy. I am a homeschool wanna-be. Today, in particular, I am feeling very envious of all the moms who get to stay home and teach their children. My oldest son has a bad cold and was awake for several hours in the night. My husband and I decided to keep him home from school. I lay down with him around 5:30 AM (hubby had already been with him for at least 2 hours by that point!) and got him back to sleep around 5:45. Instead of rolling over and being able to go to sleep myself, I had to lie there and worry about how to get my classroom covered so I could stay home. At 6:45 I called two of the people I can use as subs. Neither could sub for me. So, I had to call my mom to come out and stay with the boys while I went to teach. I am very lucky to have her living close by and always willing to help. I was able to get my classroom covered in the afternoon (by my mom!) so I could come home. However, I started my work day today fighting back tears of frustration because I could not be home with my own child!! Don't get me wrong..........I love my job and enjoy being there. I even enjoyed it this morning after reassuring myself that my son was cozy in his own home with his own grandma watching him.........he was in good hands. But I desperately wanted those good hands to be MINE. I admit that on a daily basis I have homeschool envy............it was just really strong today. I know homeschooling is not easy. And I'm sure homeschooling parents have many days or at least moments when they wonder if they are doing the "right thing". They may even have moments of envy towards the parents who leave the house and go out into the work world each day. I am just saying that I would have given anything today to be able to stay home and take care of my son all day........that's the way it should be.